Okay

So, I don't really keep this up to date, but in the past 3 weeks I have:

-Visited NYC for the first time

-Saw snow

-Finished my first semester of college

-Spent 5 days in Chicago

-Saw Andrew Bird perform in an incredible downtown Chicago church

-Turned 19

-Had one of the greatest birthdays thanks to my best friends

Excited for 2010.

Guess who

2,500 miles

Chicago, Illinois

Monday, December 14th

...:)

I don't write about important things on here. In fact, I don't know why I write on here at all, I mean, it's not like I write what I'm really thinking. And I don't write about anything I truely love, or with any substance. I post (almost) meaningless lyrics and videos and random bits and pieces of nothing.

And I don't know why I'm complaining and writing this either, seeing as no one reads this, and if they did, they would be getting a fairly inaccurate idea of who I am. I'm craving deeper connections with people, but getting nothing.

I hate the internet.

Lina Scheynius:

I'd like to capture moments as raw as these...If only.

Bikes, beaches, birthday cake icecream

Biking in downtown St. Pete,

I haven't been a very good friend lately, but I'm pretty sure I could spend most days like this.

Lost but found, confused but certain, anchored yet unstable.

What gives?

WHY?

at the Social, November 2nd.

But God put a song on my palm
That you can't read
I'll be embalmed with it long before you'll see

Providence

Tangled up in our not-so-common sense,
I heard you say you'd never sleep again 'til the bed was made.
You lied, you lied, you lied, you lied.
Dancing around with all the ghosts in empty homes,
you sang and you sounded like you knew it was your own,
Rang out a shot in the dark,
Some things are best to let fall apart.

oh

And if you promise spring,

then I’ll know you are a liar

Cause in the spring
Tender grasses won’t burn easily
Tough thrushes sing
Still my lover won’t return to me

I've been in a weird funk, (I guess you could call it that) for about a month now. I can't really explain how I've been feeling, but I've felt entirely unsocial, uninspired, etc. Luckily, I've been feeling much better and think I'm getting back to my normal self.

On Wednesday, Phoebe and I went to a lecture series at USF where Tim Gunn (co host of Project Runway/Liz Claiborne chief creative officer) was the...motivational speaker? I guess you could call it that. Anyway, I almost didn't go, but I'm so glad I did. He spoke for almost 2 hours about his experience in the fashion industry and followed with a Q & A session. Fashion is always something I've been interested in, but never really considered it as a career. Still, (even though I have no intentions of signing up for a fashion course), his speech made me 100% sure that I want nothing more than to have a career in something art related.

He talked a lot about fashion history and art history in general and it kept reminding me of when I took art history at Columbia. I remember all of the other classes I had wanted to take were full and art history was basically one of the only classes left. I had NO desire to ever take that class, but I ended up loving it and finding it one of the most rewarding classes I've taken.

Anyway, I'm kind of rambling as usual, but I'm considering maybe focusing on an art history major in a year or two? Who knows, but the speech was another reminder that I'm not living in Chicago like I always wanted to be!

Glastonbury

She decided to erase you almost as a lark.

Ideas floating around

Why? Why’d you do that
You shouldn’t have done that
If I told you once I told you three times
You’ll get your punishments when you show me your crimes
It’s not a spell or a curse you put on me
Or the way you make me smile so tenderly
But how I wish it was your temper you were throwing
Damn you for being so easygoing.

Northwestern girls,

I'm all grown up this time, I swear.

At a loss for words these days, so, paintings:

Hive

The Island of Childrens Children

Oahu, HI

patience, shadow

for all your sight, there's no sight to see

The naming of things

you remind me of you
the way you shot right through and how
you broke my window glass, fast
it happened so fast
I have to confess that I
that I was impressed.

It's a wonderful life

Creature fear

Wishing

someone would look beyond the surface and see the layers that go unnoticed.

R.M.

Saul Leiter

“I spent a great deal of my life being ignored. I was always very happy that way. Being ignored is a great privilege. That is how I think I learnt to see what others do not see and to react to situations differently. I simply looked at the world, not really prepared for anything.”

Rain

A kiss goodni-i-ight

On a positive note, cute polaroid montages are always nice!

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There is so much I want do in life, and so much I want to be apart of, and so much I want to experience. What if it never happens? I know people always say 'everything will fall in to place', but what if it doesn't? What if I'm one of those lives that people look at as an example of how not to live their life? Because there's people out there like that you know. I hate that people out there are doing the things I feel like I'm supposed to be doing. I feel like everything good is happening somewhere else.

Anyway, this is just one of those random rants and is definitely too deep for any internet blog.

Souverian

I am liking this whole having Friday's off thing already! I sat around and did nothing today except drink tea, watch movies, and eventually baked a cake in the afternoon. I did, however, finally got around to scanning the pictues from when Rachel was here, so lets get on to that.